ME on-Line! :)

"I never wished to be your #1... I only wished to be your ONLY one :)"

I'm a lucky girl, but not in love. I'm a genius, but not in love. I'm almost perfect until I realized that LOVE makes me incomplete. I don't know where to find love. I don't know where to see love. All I know is I hate love.

I hate love for making me fool. I hate love for making me an idiot. And I hate love because I don't have you by my side. This feeling kills me. This feeling makes me insane. I always cry every night while waiting for your reply on my simple Hi's. I don't know how to say I love you. I don't how to say I really cared. I don't know. I really don't know...

My tears fell down. My heart breaks and aches. My heart is sick. Sick of this feeling. Wishing that I can have you back to cure my heart. I did my best right? But, how can you do this to me?? How can you leave me and choose that stupid girl?? I tried to be the best for you, so I can be your only one. But... you're a playful one. You chose to be an effin' fuckin' man that sucks!

You know what?! I love you. I really does. This words are filled with hatred, but I still love you. Believe me. I don't want to move on because I chose to be with you even if it hurts me. Even if it kills me.

Now, our love story ends. Our love story ends in an awful situation that scares me of leaving you. I need to hate you for treating me as a mess, but my heart chose to love you. I need to end this because I'm tired. Tired of being your number two. Tired of being your second choice.

I'm lucky 'coz I met you. I'm very lucky because I found love in you. And that makes me realize that no matter what happen, heart is always over with mind when you're in love.